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God is alive and moving.

March 5, 2010

God is so so alive and moving.

I feel as though I have continually struggled in being able to quiet myself in order to clearly hear His voice. I’m learning.

Although I don’t allow Him to speak in the quiet, He is SOOO speaking in and through my life. This week I felt His hand so directly. He didn’t have to answer my request, but He not only answered it, He answered it beyond what I could have imagined Him to do. I can’t say much more about it, but man do I have so much joy just in seeing Him work in some minor detail this past week.

I have been able to recognize Him recently in the speech of others, and even in my own actions. I know that He continues to use me as a tool to bring glory to Himself. And I find so much joy and peace in each day knowing that I am utilizing the time that I have when He asks me to allow Him to use me. This has truly been one of the greatest times of my life recognizing the importance of doing everything for His glory. If that means putting aside homework to have great conversations with people, He’ll give me the strength and endurance to get it done. But I’ve learned to take every second as a precious moment in which He has purpose.

On another, but similar note, tonight was our staff info meeting.

I just can’t but be overjoyed when I hear and see others desiring to serve the Lord through seeking to fulfill the Great Commission. I know that not only has He given me the passion and heart for the lost and broken, but He has definitely given me a passion to encourage others as they seek to fulfill this same goal. I love my job.

And I just have to say, I am SO excited for missions conference. I’m excited partly because my ma finally gets to see first hand what Biola’s about and what I’ve been about these past 4 years. But I’m also more so excited to see what the Lord has in store for Biola during missions. He is so moving through our staff, especially as MC diligently continues to work to make everything come together. I’m just waiting, (completely impatiently I might add), for that week. Time to get that ooga-booga prayin goin on, as my mom would say. This thing needs to be bathed in it.


Dreams 6,7,8.. some.

February 18, 2010

1. I dreamed I was swimming in a lake and everywhere I went jaws popped up and ate a limb off of someone. but i was okay.

2. i dreamed Joy was a part of team Morocco with Kerri. But it was an all girls team, and they only made it to New Orleans, which was actually only a little park where they built a house.

3. i dreamed something else silly this morning. but i don’t remember what. but i’ve realized all of my best dreams happen in the morning right before i get up. i also talk in my sleep… but only in the morning. interesting.

i feel like i should start blogging things that matter again. but who knows that i’ll ever keep up with it.

last week i learned a lot of great stuff about God’s original intent for relationships, as well as what He expects of us both in terms of His original design and His expectations as a result of the fall. interesting stuff.

we had our staff retreat this past weekend and we talked a lot about what our biggest stresses are that we won’t let go, as well as our ultimate helplessness and neediness of God. It’s been really great praying completely and totally out of helplessness… as it should be. but i’m still really figuring out what God wants of me. in the meantime, i’m livin it up and giving the Lord as much joy as i possibly can in everything i do. i’m being useful of every second… whether doing classes, homework, work, or spending time with people.. i don’t want to waste time. if i’m with people, i don’t want to be off thinking about other things i have to do.

so, i’m going to end this now. i’m a little scattered. that’s one thing i won’t make time to do…a blog that makes sense. can’t win ’em all.

Dream #5. (plus some).

February 7, 2010

Last night I dreamed I flew around with Santa. Only Santa didn’t have a sleigh, he flew a 757 plane. The plane was lit up completely in Christmas lights that resembled the Peter Pan’s ship at the end of the movie. It was quite a sight. So I’m flying on this plane with lots and lots of people… I’m unsure why. Why but I went up to the front and hung out with Jack from the nightmare before Christmas. We flew over DC and my neighborhood in Portsmouth. Then Jack made me get out of the plane and we magically flew around this neighborhood where he told me that our family needed to take in an old woman and take care of her. I told him the thought would be ridiculous since I can’t make that kind of decision without my family, and I am not even living with them. So we went to discuss the issue with my family, only my family wasn’t my family. I had a sister, brother, both parents and a golden lab. They were kinda crazy, so I left. That’s about all I remember.

A few nights ago I dreamed I was playing Wii baseball but all of the characters were from ToyStory. And I wasn’t playing Wii, I was in the baseball game.

Then 2 nights ago I dreamed some woman was chasing after me and a bunch of people. We were flying around and I was trying to help them escape. And there was a tunnel. Umm… That’s about all I remember.

Dream #4.

January 25, 2010

I dreamed I was on the Bachelor.Β  I kept thinking to myself, what the heck am I doing here? I am not trying to get married right now. And I HATE wearing heels.

Can’t wait for the new episode tonight.

Dream #3.

January 24, 2010

i dreamed i drove through Thomas Jefferson’s house on a 4 wheeler. i thought to myself, i shouldn’t be doing this… and then i just kept riding.

Dream #2.

January 19, 2010

Last night I dreamed I was staying with my grandma. Only my grandma’s house… wasn’t really my grandma’s house. It had a whole bunch of doors connecting everywhere. So I was staying in one guest room, and this boy that I used to be good friends with as a child stayed in the other. The weird thing is, this boy is now what one might call a thug. So, needless to say, I was pretty confused as to why he was staying with my grandma.

Then, I went outside to play. I ended up chasing a chicken around this farm, and the chicken turned out to be Jon Lovitz dressed in a chicken suit. He was very unhappy that he was cast as a chicken, so he got wasted. Since he couldn’t drive himself home, he was sent home on a bus.

Once good ol’ Jon was out of the picture, I decided to play cricket. I don’t even know how to play cricket, but I played it. Only instead of using the bats they use, we used slinkys to hit the ball. The end.

Dream #1.

January 19, 2010

I’ve decided to start blogging my dreams. so… here goes.

Last night, I dreamed I was on a cruise ship. The ship was 5 stories, but split into 2 different sections. To get to the other half of the ship, you had to go down the elevator, across the entry way, and back up the other elevator.

So, I’m on this cruise with my mom, Lauren, and I don’t remember the 3rd person. I don’t remember where my mom was, but when I walked to my room on the 5th floor, Lauren and the other person decided to try and kill me. Sup widdat? They threw a syringe across the room that injected something into me, and then tried to electrocute me. Bummer.

So I ran out of the room and had to make my way down the elevator, across the hall, and up the elevator to the 2nd floor to security. The entire time, I had the girls chasing me. I made it to a shop on the 1st floor of the other side, and thankfully, since we were in public, they couldn’t kill me. So I purchased something just so I could write on the back of the receipt, “9-1-1, Help! Call security!” He called security, and I finally made it upstairs. Unfortunately, they didn’t believe me. Ha. So… I spent the rest of my night running from my roommate and avoiding my room. The end.